Rare Moments: Confessions Of A Mother With A Special Needs Child

Published my Virtualmosque.com (Suhaib Webb)
12 Jan, 2015
This is the original uncut version

Rare Moments
Confessions Of The Mother Of A Child With Special Needs

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There come those rare moments when out of nowhere, and when we least expect it, something truly magical happens…
Perhaps some of us are too wrapped up in the mucky puddles of our lives to actually notice those moments…
But one way or another… One chance or another…
Whether we want to admit it or not… We all get glimpses of dreams coming true…
Fairytale wedding nights and surprise birthday parties…
A baby’s first step and a child’s heartwarming smiles…
A hug from the right person at the right time…
A moment of success under the spotlight… Or genuine appreciation from our loved ones…
A kiss that melts souls and weakens knees…
First days of school and rose-colored graduations…
A thought or an idea that boosts our minds and hearts with hope and energy…

True submission… Under the sparkling light of faith…

There come those rare moments when suddenly, and out of nowhere… Something truly magical happens…
And I was one of the lucky few to see it and feel it… And here I am placing it lovingly in my cherished box of beautiful memories…
The magical moment when my son became part of our family…
And we got to enjoy him for one whole hour…

My daughter and I froze in place… Mesmerized by the beauty of this unity… For 60 blessed minutes…. each second was worth a lifetime of happiness…
My son, who had been living with us for eleven years…
Blended with us tonight… And for the first time…
In a very long time…
We were finally a family…

I got to answer his smart questions…
I got to cuddle with him and his sister on our couch and watch a movie…
A new movie he’s never seen before…
And yet he never acted up…
He never banged his head against the wall and never punched me in the face when I looked at him…
He didn’t slap his sister or try to break the TV…
He didn’t…
He laughed and joked and told us how much he loves us…
He walked to his room
All by himself…
And fetched his blue blanket…
All by himself…
And came back with messy hair and a big adorable grin that shined like a full moon on our lives…We were there to see it and feel it…We were there to enjoy that blessing tonight…And even though it might sound so simple and normal…
To me… It was one of the most beautiful moments of my life…

My eleven-year-old son was behaving like an eleven year old for the very first time…

With no extra doses of medication or midnight calls to doctors…
With no worries about seizures and panic attacks and excessive drooling from excitement…
With no wondering how I’ll manage tomorrow and how I survived yesterday…
With no apologies to people around me and explaining his condition to his sister over and over..
I didn’t have to hold back my tears… And I didn’t have to shield everyone with my body from his sudden blows..
I didn’t….
And only now I realize that something ‘not happening’ could be the greatest most amazing blessing of all…
A pleasant normal side of my son was given to me as a gift tonight…
For one whole hour…
He sat and talked to us like a young man and then fell asleep on my lap like an innocent little baby…
Just like that…
And as I glanced at the look on his sister’s face…
Absorbing her smile and serene feeling of long lost security…
As I watched her fall asleep peacefully without fearing that her own brother was in the same room…
My heart sang a beautiful lullaby I’ve never heard before…
I sat alone with both my children asleep in my arms… Hoping there was a pause button for this rare magical moment that would make it last forever…
The whole world smiled back at me… Basking in my newfound happiness…
For a brief moment I got to experience a daily event of a normal life…
And not in my wildest dreams did I think that something so simple could be so glorious and fulfilling…
Even when I knew deep down that come morning…
I’ll have to return my ordinary special gift back..
It was worth every magical second…

If only we could stop running… Just for a little bit…
If only we could stop and appreciate those rare normal moments that make our lives extraordinary…
If we could stop chasing the unknown for just a little bit and take the time to absorb the beauty we hardly notice anymore…
A sparkle in loving eyes… And a silence of true understanding…
Masterpieces made from cereal boxes and play dough… And life-changing art drawn by little messy hands…
If only we could allow those rare cherished moments to invade our busy empty lives for just a little while…

Perhaps that’s when our dreams will twinkle brightly in the night…
And we will finally realize that happiness is lined with appreciating the simple things in life… that are ever so great…

Thank you Allah for letting me see what ordinary means…
It’s truly and magnificently….
Extraordinary…

Lilly S. Mohsen

7 thoughts on “Rare Moments: Confessions Of A Mother With A Special Needs Child

  1. silent observer

    No wonder you are a wise, strong special woman! While reading this article I realised that along with happiness there must be too much pain too in those moments, but you chose to just highlight and write about the positives … I admire your strength and patience …may Allah swt reward you abunduntly for being patient, wise, responsible and for having such a positive outlook

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  2. Imaan

    Ma shaa Allah. May Allah(swt) continuously reward you in this world and the next for the goodness you possess and give. I also Ask Allah(swt) to make those rare moments frequent moments and may He shower blessing, happiness and tranquillity in your home in sha Allah. Ameen.

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    1. lillymohsen Post author

      Only pure hearts pray for other hearts, and you have a pure heart full of love mashAllah…. I’m blessed to be one of the people you made du’aa for… Thank you Imaan

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  3. Umm Saleh

    Jazakumullah khair sister for sharing this beautiful private moment with us! As a mom I can see you have an immense love for your kids. May Allah continue blessing you with beautiful patience, love and strength every day. With every second of difficult moments with your special child, may Allah reward you and your family with an exceptionally beautiful Special Spot near Him just for you!

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    1. lillymohsen Post author

      Umm Saleh…. I remember the time when I was very hesitant to publish this article, feeling it was too private… But now, finding lovely people like you making du’aa for me and my family every time they read it, Im grateful and overjoyed…
      Thank you so much for these lovely prayers that are worth the whole world and more…

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  4. ssb1980

    SubhaanAllaahil ‘Azeem! Love you soo much for Allaah’s sake! May Allaah include u among HIS beloved ~ as u always portray your deepest love and gratitude towards Him soo beautifully in your writings ~ making me cry out of love for Him! May Allaah bless you and your kids with the best of the bests in both lives, may He bless your son with complete healing and a blessed long life with sound health & eemaan! May Allaah increase all those who read your articles in eemaan, sabr & shukr. Aameen yaa Rabbal ‘Aalameen!!!

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